19 years ago, I consecrated myself to the Blessed Mother. At the time, it was both the hardest and the easiest choice I have ever made. I was raised Baptist, we never taught about the Saints or the Blessed Mother accept in passing. I had lost my faith the previous year, and became a secret atheist. I couldn't believe in a God that hated me, and whose followers were such self righteous hypocrites. I hated God. I hated the Church, and more than anything, I hated myself.